I just can’t believe it. Our time has finally come. I feel overwhelmed, incredulous, and so completely blessed. Though Adam’s 15-month deployment to Iraq was the most difficult experience we’ve had to endure, I am so thankful for this separation because it has held in it immeasurable life lessons, it has strengthened the bond between us,…
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Love, Truth, and the Theory Of Relativity
It’s been a whole year since Adam first left for Iraq and we’re on the downhill slope these days. Not so difficult to believe we’ve survived, but I am incapable of understanding the relativity of time: how time flies, but only in hindsight; how it seems to bend and stretch at its own pace, yet…
Spring in Saigon
God, where to begin? I just… can’t believe I have only one more month left here and then I’m off to Seoul. This has been the single, most eye-opening-see-how-this-small-world-works-and-learn-more-than-I-probably-ever-wanted-to-know-about-myself experience so far (okay, so I went a little hyphen-happy… oops, there it is again). Emotions were running high back in January, after welcoming my soldier…
On the Upswing Of Things
I thought it was high time to post a non-whiny blog for once. I’m definitely on the upswing of things. Adam will be home very soon on leave and I am counting down the days like a kid before Christmas. I even made those red and green paper rings we used to make in grade…
When Your Heart Is An Empty Room
They come with a vengeance, and most times without warning. It’s Friday night and I’m on the couch, not knowing what to do, where to go, or whom to call. I’m sucker-punched and down for the count, in fetal position. A pain that moves around inside me, not limited to one localized area, but alive…
Two Months Of Joy, Hope, Fear, and Longing
The relentless heartache of deployment: It’s been two months since Adam’s been gone and it still feels as difficult as the first day without him. It’s not a sharp pain, though, it’s more of a dull, aching, relentless longing. At times it can be more urgent, other times numbing, but it is ALWAYS eclipsed by…